Path of Grace

I’ve been struggling during this lock-down and I didn’t know why.

My managers have been telling my that my change in character is most likely anxiety about this pandemic. Which, according to them, is understandable but I need to sort myself out.

My colleagues and friends tell me to cheer up and be my normal bubbly self. I didn’t know how to make that happen coz I didn’t know what I was doing differently.

I felt lonely, insecure and the only thing I could think was that maybe those around me had a point but how am I meant to fix it?

We’re not working in ideal circumstances, people are not being ideal customers, let alone respectable human beings. This lock-down isn’t over and this virus hasn’t been beaten yet.

My question has indeed been, how can people be so complacent?

I’ve woken up with a new resolution. Whilst few things have actually changed in my daily routine, I could still make more of an effort to change myself for the better and I started to formulate a new routine.

Then it hit me. The change in me isn’t anxiety, depression, a lack of enthusiasm or loneliness. The change in me was that I had simply forgotten who I was. Who I am.

I am a child of God.

God didn’t create in us a spirit of fear, defeat, loneliness or hopelessness. He created in us a spirit of hope, strength, courage, devotion, creativity, compassion and humility.

Most importantly, He is my Father, my protector, my provider, my beginning and my end, He is above all and He loves me.

This has been a scary time, a confusing time and a lonely time but it hasn’t been the end.

God is still firmly in control and my heart is settled with that truth.